What is your name : A lost soul who hasn't found the way

Who do you want the poem written for: me torwards my father whom i've missed so much for all these years

Why do you want the poem written: my father died when i was three. He killed himself, he's tried before, but that was the only successive one obviously. It's been thirteen years i've been grieving his loss, making up stories in my mind that he is still alive, thirteen years, fatherless, abused by men trying to be my father. I've tried taking the same path, tried to release the pain the same way he did. As a result i have bracelets of scars around my wrists and ankles, i'm on anti-depressants but they don't do much. they only dull the pain for a while, they don't make it go away. It'll probably never go away but a poem might help. i am a big fan of poetry and music and compose my own but i have never composed one good enough for me and the love i feel for my father. I'll never forget him, every morning i wake up and the first thing i see in the mirror is my father, i have so many of his looks and i have to deal with that every day when i wake up to get ready for a day at school. people don't understand ,they look at me as though i'm crazy. they don't know how it is to lose a father that way and live with that truth your whole life...

Do you have any other comments or thoughts: these poems are inspirational

What style of poem would you prefer (happy, sad, romantic etc.): sad,thoughtful at the same time

Please choose which package you would prefer: Deluxe

Do you have any last comments or thoughts: If my dad could or can hear me,i love you i love you so much and i wish you were here right now it's so hard without you...

Letter To My Father

All sons try to copy their father, it's instinctive, it's in your DNA, so you've left me a horrible legacy, why did you leave Earth that way? Because I've tried to follow in your footsteps, just to get out of the pain that I'm in, because I've lost my hope for the future, I don't where to start, where to begin. I can't imagine children of my own, or having my own balanced family, I can't imagine a brighter world, and it being a different place to be. Because this is what you've left me with, a broken, sagging and heavy heart, and I could choose your easy way out, but I'm not, I'm going to find that start. I'm going to get some help, but I can't win this one on my own, as I've got some proving to do, there are some people that need to be shown. And just before I begin that momentous journey, and find those rocky and jagged mountains to climb, I think I need to say goodbye once and for all, and I think about now is just the right time. So I'll end by saying "I love you", I know the dragons so well that you tried to fight, and if it's OK with you, I'll let you rest, so goodbye for now Dad, sleep tight.

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Allen Jesson

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