What is your name : Ben

Who do you want the poem written for: Candice

Why do you want the poem written: I am currently going through a difficult divorce and she's divorced twice over raising three beautiful children while working full time. i have only known her for about three months but the intensity of the love I have developed for her seems to have far exceeded that. I feel I have known her a lifetime. She is an beautiful incredible person with the most infectious smile. The first time I first expressed any outward interest in her she had passed me in the hall way and I just felt this compelling urge with my heart in my throat to call her back which I did. I remember her walking back to me wondering what i wanted to say..and me nervously blurting out " i just wanted you to know i think you are extremely hot" as goofy as that sounded! And she replied to my pleasant surprise smiled and said "ditto" and walked away.I have never been the same since then. It has been somewhat hard to spend time with each other because of the fact that firstly nobody except her at work knows I'm going through a divorce and it would be obviously awkward and inappropriate to have an open relationship since we work together. i enjoy the moments she comes to my operating room(I'm an anesthesiologist and she's an OR nurse)on the pretext to come help and we catch each other looking at each other and our eyes tell so much about how we feel about each other. She has been through two failed marriages and of course she is scared to open up completely to someone new. I try to reassure her that i will/do not plan to hurt her in anyway. i want her to know in anything I do that or say that I will be there for her totally as long as I live. I'm not just in this for the ride but I plan on spending the rest of my life with her. i am so certain and so sure as to how I feel. i do not hesitate in asking her to be my soulmate and i 'm willing to wait as long as it takes for her to feel completely safe with my intentions.. I also wanted to let her know that i am so proud of the way she has been strong for family; her three kids Bobby , Caitlynn and Steven, and how she as raised them and loved them unconditionally with no excuses in spite of the tremendous burden as a single mom. That in itself just makes me love her even more. her kids have also taken to me and that means a tremendous lot to me and see them as my own as well. i tell her i love her so many times but each time carries so much meaning which i yearn for her to know and understand the weight behind it. I want her to know I eagerly look forward to the day when my divorce is through and I can start my life with her; me and my two daughters as well as her kids.. and i can proclaim to anybody who would hear how much I love her(only her sister Sandi knows how I truly feel; she's like a sister to me). I bought her a promise ring which I will be giving her this Christmas as a show of my commitment to us and our future and the love that i have for her. Its a three stone ring with the center ring reflecting me and her and the two side stones representing our kids as one unit.

What are the key messages you would like to send: I love her more and more each day.i am totally committed to our relationship and have never felt so certain about anything in my life as i have felt about being with her for the rest of my life even with the short time i have gotten to know her. She has given me the passion to love and care for someone which i never had or experienced before. i also want her to know that its okay to let me pick her up when she's down and feeling weak as she always tries to put up a strong front inspite of some very difficult times at work and at home. i want her to know that its okay to lean on me because i'll protect her and uphold her always.

Do you have any funny, sad, happy, embarrassing or otherwise memorable moments that you would like to share: We went to las vegas for a few days october and it was aan amazing time. It was away from everyone back home so we freely expressed ourselves ...and I vividly remember dancing with her at the nightclub we went to that night,and as packed as it was,just holding her and lookinto her eyes i felt we were the only people in Vegas at that moment that mattered.

Do you have any other comments or thoughts: i hope i gave you a general idea of what i'm looking for. this letter is going to be presented with this promise ring I bought her for christmas;my committement to her beyond my present siuation for the rest of our lives. A reassurance that I'm in this for the long haul and that I have no plans of going anywhere after my divorce is thorugh except to be with her and her family;my family now.

What style of poem would you prefer (happy, sad, romantic etc.): happy,romantic

Please choose which package you would prefer:Deluxe

Line After Line After Line

I yearn for you to know the real weight and meaning, the meaning of this love, in this heart of mine, so I think I'll just keep on telling you, I'll keep on saying "I love you", line after line after line. As you know, life can at times be troublesome, and I think this is a particularly difficult time, but life is never always plain traveling, it seems that there's always a mountain to climb. And neither us got it right the first time around, but that hasn't killed the potential in this heart, and I guess I just wanted to say "I love you", but I'm not quite really sure how to start. You see, the first time I expressed any interest, if I recall you'd just passed me in the hall, and I had this compelling urge to call you back, (my heart was in my throat, scared of feeling small). I remember you walking back towards me, and I didn't know whether to say this or not, because you had a questioning look in your eye, I blurted out "I think you are extremely hot". Look, I was nervous and I know I sounded goofy, but you smiled and said "ditto" and walked away, and I've been smiling, inside and outside, ever since, I've never been the same since that magical day. Now, it's been quite hard to spend time with each other, and that has certainly caused some clouds of gloom, it would be awkward to have an open relationship, but I do enjoy those moments in my operating room. You visit on the pretext of trying to help, but the truth is there, you can see it our eyes, they say so much about how we feel for one another, although I guess this should come as no surprise. I know you're scared to truly open up, I don't blame you, you've already been bitten twice, but of all the OR nurses on this planet, I've never know of one who is even half as nice. And this is my solemn promise to you: (and this is a promise you'll never have to forgive), because I will (and I plan to) never, ever hurt you, I will be there for you, for as long as we both shall live. I'm not just in this for a short ride, with you, I'm planning to spend the rest of my life, I am so certain and I'm so sure how I feel, I know that one day, I will ask you to be my wife. But I am willing to bide my patient time, for you, until you feel safe, I will happily wait, I want you to feel completely safe with my intentions, because Candice, truly, you are my soul-mate. I also wanted you to know that I'm proud of you, I'm proud of the way you've been strong for your family, Bobby, Caitlynn and Steven are a credit to you, and you've always loved them so unconditionally. I also know it's been a hard road as a single mom, and I'm sure there have been tears on pillows at night, but you've never asked or looked for excuses, and your love has shone so consistently bright. And that makes me love you even more, and it's so important that the kids have taken to me, because truly, I see them as my very own, and together, we can make their world a place to be. I know I've said "I love you" a thousand times, (and I've told you a million times about exaggeration), but each and every time I tell you it means more, for you, I have nothing but undying admiration. And I can't wait for the day when I'm a free man, because then I'll get on the roof tops and sing out loud, I'll tell the world of my enormous love for you, I'll tell the world just how you make me feel so very proud. You have reignited a passion within me, the passion to love and care for someone more, and I just wanted to say "I love you", I guess that's really what these words are for. I also want you to know that you can count on me, I'll be there for you whenever you're feeling down or weak, I know you try to put on a brave face and a strong front, but let me be there to hold you up, so to speak. And we can have many more dances like the one in Vegas, when we can love, look and express our true worth, we can dance like we don't care and there's no tomorrow, and in each other's eyes we'll find our place on planet Earth. Because with this ring I solemnly promise to you, I promise to love you more, on each and every day, and I promise, I've never, ever felt more certain, and apart from "I love you", I have nothing left to say.

Copyright www.agiftofpoetry.co.uk 2008

Allen Jesson

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